4 a.m.

I can't sleep. This seems to be turning into a tri-weekly ritual. I conk out, knackered, at half 9 and then find myself staring at the ceiling from about 2 onwards until eventually I get up because telling myself to go to sleep isn't working. Rather, that voice gets drowned out by all the things I have to do and all those teeny flubs made throughout the day which loom up in the dark.

One of my students -- one of my brightest students -- came in to talk to me today about his essays and we got talking about Frankenstein and he got all excited about queer theory applications to Frankenstein and I got all excited about the possibilities of the creature being representative of Frankenstein's fear of his own sexuality and we both got all excited about Frankenstein cutting out the uterus from reproduction. There was much arm flailing and hyperventilating from all the excitement, and then I referred to transvestitism when I meant transgendered and tried to back-pedal because I really did mean transgendered and got all in a muddle. And he just looked at me with a mixture of pity and incredulous and gently tried to change the subject to save me from further embarrassment. But I wouldn't let him, because I meant transgendered! And there was jargon and blah and it was awful. Moments like those make me wish I came with a stop function.

So that's keeping me awake. As is the thought of making project bags. (Because in my head such things can run side by side.) I've got this fantastic thick, soft linen and some very funky prints and I'm thinking I might have to put the two together, with buttons and drawstrings and pockets, oh my!

Three things on my mind at this very minute:

1. I need to water my plants.
2. I wish Mozzie would stop farting.
3. The radiator in my office works and it's warm, hurrah!

Right. I got up to do things as well as blather. There's a list. It needs to be checked.

Comments

[sparklycat]

Hooray for your radiator working ;o) just in time....it'smindnumbinglybraingrindingtoaholt freezing today

[Eliza]

i know exactly precisely totally what you mean. i need a stop button. or at least a better internal editing system before i say things.

[Larissa]

You're much more productive than I am at 4am. You make lists - I just surf Ravelry!